A couple weeks ago, I posted about commitment. Today, I’m going to post about contentment…and let y’all in on a little secret. 😉
I had a contentment problem. And it was actually fairly bad and effecting my life/horsemanship.
I know a lot of horse people around here now, I’ve made my rounds around here and I’ve been able to meet a lot of people. I’m so thankful for 99% of them. I’ve ridden with them, gotten horses from them (Jubilee…and hmmm…another mare? Y’all will see soon.) and made great friends. But then there are some that I’ve gotten to know fairly well, and honestly, they’ve infuriated me. I’m not a person that you can anger quickly, I try to let things go as much as possible and stay out of things if it’s going to make me mad. But there’s a few things I can’t stand, that just made me mad. One of them is horse owners with no respect for the horse, and the other is horse riders who just want to ride to look good. It’s all about them. The horse may be head-bobbing lame, but you bet they’ll take him to the next race because they’ve gotta look good. The horse may have his issues, but they can fix it by themselves because “they know what they’re doing!!” when all they’re doing is putting on ill-fitting tack, and trying to fix a horse by using gimmicks. I see these people get new tack, new trailers, new horses, almost every weekend. They get to do what I’ve worked hard for, what I’ve sweated my butt off for, for the past few years. I’ve gotten maybe an inch closer, then shut down. Roping, getting a way to haul, it’s not an option right now. And I let that bug me majorly.
I kept wanting to yell at everyone and tell them that I have a really, really good horse. I’m ready, Red’s ready. We’ve got this. Why am I being held back? Newsflash, I’m young. I can’t go by myself, so I need people to back me. Why haven’t I been able to? I hid my feelings pretty well, but honestly, it was depressing me. It made me not even want to try because..why? I’m not getting closer. Meanwhile, the people I know (and I do know them well.) are being major jerks and still getting everything.
And all of a sudden, I had this abrupt realization.
I may not be able to take lessons weekly like a lot of y’all, or show every weekend some months. I may not be able to afford a $3,000 saddle and go out and prove not even myself, but my horse and I, and prove to people that we have what it takes, in front of a crowd. But I’ve got the best horse I’ve met. And believe it or not, even though he’s had a rough,interesting life at some parts, he’s an amazing, hard working horse. He tries so hard, whether we’re roping, out on the trails or doing boring flat-work. No matter what, I always have him by my side (quite literally. He’s a puppy.) and I wouldn’t trade it. One day, we’ll prove those people that hard work pays off. But I’m too busy learning it myself right now. Even if I’m the only one to see it in us, the potential, at least I see it, and I know Red see’s it. We know our limits, but we also know our potential.
I just hope that eventually, we get our chance out there, too. 😉